If you look at my profile icon when you go to my page you see a lotus. or lily, I don't remember any more. What ever, any way, I have not changed it since I opened up my account on New grounds. I have not changed it for one simple reason. It used to be my avatar everywhere I went, every site I used. Why don't I change it like I have everywhere else? I don't know. I guess as the tittle says, time makes the heart grow fonder.
I think the same goes for my user name. I have been using it for years now, since I was around 16 or so. maybe 15 or 14. It was a short step from what i used to use, which was nothingmater, but people started to nick name me nothings, so I switched into Nothins. Now I identify with the name. I use it everywhere, it is who I am, it is what I call my self online and sometimes in real life. Time had made the heart grow extremely fond of the name. But the photo? I am still fond of it. But it also reminds me of a time not long ago, but what seams like a distant memory in my mind.
It reminds me of a website I used to visit, many have used it, though the site is now as dead as the horse every one keeps beating, which is weird. But I used to be on Mangafox every hour of the day I was able to. At the time it was my life. I made many friends there, over time they all fade away, some remain, even if contact is lost. But even as you get older, no matter your age, we all look back with rose tinted glasses from time to time. And some of us leave things the same on purpose so that we always have a connection to that past.
I think that is the only reason why I continue to make shitty music, instead of getting a better program and actually progressing in skill level. I do it to maintain a connect to my past, as remembrance to what once was. so that I don't forget those memories, lest they be washed away in the sands of time.